CURSEM

CURSEM (abbreviation of Crying Until Raging Seas Embrace Me) is the debut album by Sabyari electronic artist THADDEUSS. It was released on May 24th 2019 independently.

Background
Recording for the album began in April 2019. The album was entirely produced on the online software Soundtrap. THADDEUSS states that he was feeling "edgy" while making the album. The album feautres a lot of harsh sounds. It features heavy electronic, avant-garde noises.

Breakdown
BITTERSWEET: "BITTERSWEET" describes my moods. When i'm calm i can be sweet, and i could interact with someone, but when i get mad i go in a state of complete fury. I don't act like my calm self. It's almost a psychotic behavior. - THADDEUSS

GROTESQUE: "GROTESQUE" is about my angry behavior. It's something that can't be described by me. It's not a simple anger, it's severe fury. I go crazy, people might even say i'm psychotic." - THADDEUSS

I PUT SOAP ON MY OPEN WOUNDS: This song is about thinking there is no cure for my behavior. Putting soap on an open wound does not heal it. It makes things worse, that's how i feel when i try to change. I keep trying but for what? Nothing happens. - THADDEUSS

FATA MORGANA: A Fata Morgana is a complex form of superior mirage that is seen in a narrow band right above the horizon, therefore creating an illusion of something floating on air above a body of water. I associated a Fata Morgana with me constantly trying to do my best, but failing to do so. I make an illusion in my head that i can do this. I tell myself that i can do this, yet i fail. - THADDEUSS

SONATA OF THE SACRED: It's a song about a group of outcasts. Rejected from the world, they all come together to dance and sing to a song together. It's kind of like a ritual. - THADDEUSS

QUARTZ: "QUARTZ" is an interlude. It's kind of like a reliever from all of the harsh noises you've heard. - THADDEUSS

FLUORITE: It's a quite short song. I often compare it to some sort of ritual. Gnarly noises, glitchy drums, i guess you can say it's a bit of a ritual song. - THADDEUSS

EFFIGY: An Effigy is a replica of someone, often in a form of a sock puppet. I felt like i was an effigy of some sort of enemy. I was visualized as a bad effigy. I was ridiculed for saying bad things, which people would come back to. My false effigy is often criticised for doing bad things. It's basically an enemy, yet i try to think that i'm not one, yet somewhere deep, i am starting to realize that i might be the enemy. - THADDEUSS

POISON: The world is polluted. Ice caps are melting, the air is smoke, the oceans are full of plastic, people can be ruthless, and i think it's all because of me. I feel like the world is a bad place because of me. - THADDEUSS

CURSE OF THE FOREST: I start to think i was cursed. I start to think i was cursed by someone who doesen't allow me to express myself properly and makes me an overall psychotic person. I feel like i'm cursed with people eternally making fun of me and teasing me. - THADDEUSS

A BLACKBIRD'S LULLABY: I try to relieve myself. I take psychology lessons, i have learned to breathe deep, i wash my face with cold water, i lie down, i do everything to calm myself down, and eventually, i do, and i express my tranquility in this song. - THADDEUSS

Track Listing
1 - BITTERSWEET - 1:47

2. GROTESQUE - 2:54

3 - I PUT SOAP ON MY OPEN WOUNDS - 3:56

4 - FATA MORGANA - 4:13

5 - SONATA OF THE SACRED - 5:28

6 - QUARTZ - 1:30

7 - FLUORITE - 2:14

8 - EFFIGY - 5:55

9 - POISON - 4:48

10 - CURSE OF THE FOREST - 5:13

11 - A BLACKBIRD'S LULLABY - 4:44

Full Lenght: 42:46

Charts
The album is currently not charting anywhere.